When I moved out to Cincinnati, it was challenging to not have community. And I think that was why it was easy for me to slide into bad habits.
There was more that I knew I could do, I just didn’t know how to get there.
One thing that came to mind was that I needed to treat my body with respect. And so I started to monitor what I was eating, what I was drinking, and how many hours of sleep I get each night.
And after I did that for a month and evaluated it, I realized that things needed to change. But I was feeling a little overwhelmed, because to me, it almost seemed really impossible. Honestly, I just saw point B and all these hurdles to get there.
How do I go out and not feel this need to have, all the food that I want, all the drinks that I want, and stay out as late as I want? Because that’s kind of the “normal” life that I knew. I just didn’t know what it would look like, so I guess I figured I’m just going to have to do it step-by-step.
Every decision I could make, I had to think, “OK, how can I do this in a way where it’s going to affect me in a good way in the long run? Is this decision I make going to help me be the-best-version-of-myself? Is this decision I make going to help me feel peace and help me find true happiness?” And I think it’s those little steps that help me overcome all my fears of not reaching the-best-version-of-myself.
A few months ago I didn’t think I’d be where I am now . . . feeling so refreshed, being able to wake up early and just take morning walks, and having this solid morning chat with Jesus every day.
Even now, I don’t know what the-best-version-of-myself necessarily looks like, but I know that it’s going to bring me joy. It’s going to bring happiness. It’s going to bring me peace. I can visualize that. That’s what I want. That’s what I’m striving for.